Friday, July 25, 2008

bang bang just love me a lil.

mood is rather dull. supose it might be because of the shitty rain, gah and im at work.

which is not a rather favourite weekend past time.

Have gotten hair done and now I have half a blonde fringe and half black fringe and a great big fat blonde patch.jealous much?

also have gotten my bike. trust me im gangsta.

my ipod seemed to match my mood this morning it was on shuffle and it amazed me.

Last night I had the most amazing family dinner with a wonderful freinds family. Its nice to besurrounded by a family in a home. I mean yea flats are home but they never feel as clean as "home" as a family home. living wtih your family in harmony is a awesome feeling. Y do I feel that i've never had this feeling? I mean I had a home and A lovely family. and during my younger years im sure that i had a safe secure home. but my teenage years. I remeber a cold lonely house. this may have been because i wasn't home that often. May have been the whole b/f thing.........hmmmmm

....................wish I had more to say.

turns out I don't

xoxox



On ipod:

Saturday, July 19, 2008

meth: read please

Consequences Of Meth
Consequences Of Meth On Users
Meth addicts get over the acute effects of withdrawal fairly quickly. However, the "wall" period lasts 6-8 months for casual users and 2-3 years for regular users. This is a period of prolonged abstinence during which the brain recovers from the changes resulting from meth use. During this period, recovering addicts feel depressed, fuzzyheaded, and think life isn't as pleasurable without the drug
Some people never recover and remain unsatisfied with life due to permanent brain damage.
Central Nervous System Symptoms:
Writhing, jerky, or flailing movements
Irritability
Extreme nervousness
Insomnia
Confusion
Tremors
Anxiety
Aggression
Incessant talking
Hyperthermia
Convulsion
Cardiovascular Symptoms:
Chest pain and hypertension which can result in cardiovascular collapse and death
Accelerated or irregular heartbeat
Elevated blood pressure
Blood toxicity
Kidney and lung disorders
Liver damage
Blood clots
Cardiac arrest
Possible irreversible damage to blood vessels in the brain, which may produce strokes
Other Physical Effects
Dizziness
Tooth grinding
Impaired speech
Dry or itchy skin
Deficient immune system
Loss of appetite
Malnutrition

Meth is both imported and manufactured locally.
For many years, meth primarily has been imported as a finished drug. In addition, it also has been made locally, principally from bulk quantities of chemicals illegally smuggled into this country. These bulk chemicals-most notably pseudoephedrine and ephedrine-are used by "super labs," defined as laboratories capable of making more than 10 pounds of methamphetamine in 24 hours. However, the production of methamphetamine has changed significantly during the past years. Police authorities have seen a substantial increase in the number of small labs where meth cooks use "recipes," often found online, to create small amounts of the drug from legitimate household products. While these small homemade labs produce a tiny fraction of the meth a "super lab" may produce, they present a huge danger to the communities in which they operate. Toxic, hazardous, and explosive chemicals are by-products of the production process, and have a devastating effect on the environment, communities, and the children who are often present. Because of the hazards they produce, these types of labs are called "small toxic labs" by Police.


Where Does the High Go?
The FIRST association with Methamphetamine has been locked in your subconscious memory. The subconscious learns through IMMEDIATE ASSOCIATION i.e. using Methamphetamine gives almost immediate pleasure. Your subconscious remembers that first initial "high" and actually forces you to want to recapture it.
Usually a person using Methamphetamine never gets as big a "high" as she or he did on the FIRST dose. This is a result of the drugs ability to suppress and deplete the brains production of the normal chemical messenger on which the brain relies to generate positive feelings. The brain adapts to the presence of Methamphetamine by decreasing production of the normal chemical messenger. The user then begins to use more -- he has to work harder to get less and less pleasurable effect. Ultimately he crashes. As tolerance develops to the euphoric effects, higher and higher doses of Methamphetamine are needed to get pleasurable effects. Then, the more you use, the greater risk from toxic effects of Methamphetamine.
People who use Methamphetamines often lose weight because the drug turns off the drive to eat. The drug produces a feeling of satisfaction with regard to food, even though no food was eaten. Tolerance to this effect develops. When the person stops using the Methamphetamine, there is usually a rebound increase in appetite as the body discovers it has been literally feeding off itself and wasting tissue.

pinup girl curls

YAY me! have managed to do my 1st set of full curls allby myself with out fucking up and they came out awesome. A tad time consuming by never the less and its been 2 hours since i've taken them out of the pins and they haven't fallen.
yea yea yea i know shut up about the curls, it took me 2 hours to put them in. and im kinda proud. so you can shut ya trap.
Im empty. Mtv has a new show called exiled and its bout the kids from sweet sixteen. gahh. these spolit rotten childern get shipped out for a week to a 3rd world (or undeveloped) country.
and the whole time they bitch and moan. UHHHHHHHHHHHHH im sorry your doing something that most of us would die to do. you don't have to work your arse to save the money to go. its all sorted for you. You just have to go. you don't have to plan and the whole time you just sit there and whine? ugh I hate these rich kids.
Iam listerning to the new css via myspace. and its good and i enjoy it, but i feel theres no so much punch as the 1st album......hmmmm.
ne who cuties going to admire my curls.
xo

playing on the puter: css via myspace.

love and cherry ripe

Friday, July 18, 2008

a week well done

this week has been one of those weeks I look back on and enjoy remebering.
Nothing Major happened and nothing drastic.
It started with TH getting decks, so friggin cute. still learning some basic elements but its the best stress relief ever, this I know due to the fact we had no towels (lazy bitch doesn't know how to use washing machine.) and i got mad and grumpy pants. and then had a blast on decks with the headphs on and it was great. music is such a lovely thing to have in life. Speaking of having music in life.The bunnys had chewed through two pairs of headphones, so i'd given up. was over it. couldn't be fucked replacing head phs again. so I didn't. ON thursday TH gave me a present, new pink headphones. and it made my day. It wasn't as if I had whinged about not having any. He had just noticed I didn't have any and brought me some. bless your socks TH.
A new CSS album is due soon, Im xcited. Although I have read a article in which the author was wondering if they are a one album wonder and if they will surive this release.
on Thursday I got a Tattoo............eeeeekkkkkkkkkk!!!! and now im hooked. want to do it everyday.
Funny tho that there was so much hype and I was so nervous. and then It happened and it wasn't sore at all. ok thats a lie it was sore, but more like a itchy pain annoying sore. yay me?
So content. so yum pants. feeling good and oarsome. enjoy this moment whilst it lasts as it may not last long she says.
Im in love with my freinds, and i know I say this every time I blog, but they is the best things of my life. played the most intense game of memory last night with kittycat, diddles and indiekid.
Ugh they have changed the train timetable. bitches so It started pissing down and I had missed the train by 4 minutes and had to catch a taxi to work. grrr pants face.
Now im soggy and trust me its gay.
ne who Im going to search for a random bunch of music that the gangsta rapper put on a cd for me.
xoxox.
playing on pod: A mix for me made by gangsta rapper.
xoxox

Friday, July 11, 2008

friday night was spent wasted.............

let me start with this:
I pass houses,
dimpled in shadows,
a cold breeze washes my face.
Inside Im warm,
soul mates linger,
a unspoken trust
ingrained no untold words spoken,
xcitement pops,
no hidden fears,
with freinds as deep as the start of time
relax ,
bask in the release that is a soul,
kindred.

written on the way home from a freinds housewarming.
As stated above my friday night was spent at a freinds housewarming, a few blocks from me. It wasn't a late or a drunk one, just a real stoned dazed good time. I love being around my freinds. they are wonderful people who I am proud to know, yea we have our ups and downs. and we get mad and don't speak, but when it comes down to it theyre like my family and I don't think I could live without them. yummmm pants.
Going to gisborne for new years. YAY! exciting stuff.
Have booked my tattoo..next week thursday. I'l be inked. IM uber nervous. for the pain, although I think about it and trillions of people have them, so they can't be that sore. "emochild" told me if i cryed shes going to leave, so looks like I won't be crying. shame.
Im kinda pissed off, My boss told me I could go away for a week in sep, now the new gurl has pulled a tanty and I can't go unless I have someone to cover me. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrmeow. Stupid cow. so this means no melb unless coffeeface can work for me which in turn means her job has to be quiet so she can. fuck the man,
I would like to disscuss how proud off my lil freind "emochild". I call her emo but shes not real real real real emo, just a tad, she went through that gah im confused stage, and had a rough time, and has come out wonderful, shes still maybe trying to find her self a little, but shes a JEM, she really shines, and she makes such a massive effort to be a good freind. shes really coming into her own and Im proud that A) I know her and B) shes in my close circle of freinds.
Have been playing around with music lately, and by playing i mean googgggggling. THIS JUST IN new celb crush Andrew Vanwyngarden from MGMT....*dribble*

LIST OF NEW MUSIC I LUFF:
1)ladyhawke
2)cocosolid
3)MGMT
4)Blue scholars
5)..........the coshercot honeys.

Im going to hunt And gather a cuppa tea.

On pod: ratatat: classics

xoxox

Friday, July 4, 2008

a 1st blog, bittersweet.

It was raining again this morning when i woke up. I hate winter, I like being warm under a blanket and all that nice snuggly shit that comes with winter, but I hate rain and the whole not driving means i spend a fair share of my life walking in the rain. or catching buses and trains in the rain. RAIN RAIN RAIN. s hasn't been home since yesterday. maybe she realises we are uber mad at her. I can't beleive how a 2o year old cannot take responsibility for her actions, and the fact she has no adult thoughts in her head. at all! she has no concept of other peoples feelings and how to live Economically. For a while I thought maybe I was the one being a bitch, I was expecting to much? I haven't been living at home since I was 16, so maybe Ive just learnt how to deal...........but then I had a convo with m and its not me. I did not leave a pot on the stove with the hobb on. all night. Im not the one who must dry everything and inturn giving us a $180.00 power bill. I am not the one who brings people home on monday nights, I am not the one whos lives in a mess. she has to go. TH is good, i enjoy living with him, it maybe bcause were the same type of people. we could be freinds in the "real out of flat world" S would annoy me and I'd want to punch her in the face. PLease don't get me wrong "disclaimer disclaimer I AM NOT PERFECT AND YEA I MAKE MISTAKES TOO, mine don't get people Possibly killed"


Sometimes im walking and i just want to go book a ticket to soulmates face and dance and be happy and not have to pretend half the time. I have all these plans but its so hard to go through with them, its like im being held back, I can never figure out what tho, my own fears? most likely, you answered your own question. well done. but I look at the people around me and I could leave them. and it would hurt, but not for ever. ok maybe tall lanky one, but thats cause hes awesome and fun and i would miss him xtreme amounts. but everyone else nah. Like indiekoolkid, I'd miss the fun and stuff but i wouldnt hurt. My soul would not suffer.

Due to my lack of what feels like serotonin I am listerning to a lot of heavy bang bang bang music.

On ipod at the moment: deftones: saturday night wrist.



love and cherry ripe.

xo