a 1st blog, bittersweet.

It was raining again this morning when i woke up. I hate winter, I like being warm under a blanket and all that nice snuggly shit that comes with winter, but I hate rain and the whole not driving means i spend a fair share of my life walking in the rain. or catching buses and trains in the rain. RAIN RAIN RAIN. s hasn't been home since yesterday. maybe she realises we are uber mad at her. I can't beleive how a 2o year old cannot take responsibility for her actions, and the fact she has no adult thoughts in her head. at all! she has no concept of other peoples feelings and how to live Economically. For a while I thought maybe I was the one being a bitch, I was expecting to much? I haven't been living at home since I was 16, so maybe Ive just learnt how to deal...........but then I had a convo with m and its not me. I did not leave a pot on the stove with the hobb on. all night. Im not the one who must dry everything and inturn giving us a $180.00 power bill. I am not the one who brings people home on monday nights, I am not the one whos lives in a mess. she has to go. TH is good, i enjoy living with him, it maybe bcause were the same type of people. we could be freinds in the "real out of flat world" S would annoy me and I'd want to punch her in the face. PLease don't get me wrong "disclaimer disclaimer I AM NOT PERFECT AND YEA I MAKE MISTAKES TOO, mine don't get people Possibly killed"


Sometimes im walking and i just want to go book a ticket to soulmates face and dance and be happy and not have to pretend half the time. I have all these plans but its so hard to go through with them, its like im being held back, I can never figure out what tho, my own fears? most likely, you answered your own question. well done. but I look at the people around me and I could leave them. and it would hurt, but not for ever. ok maybe tall lanky one, but thats cause hes awesome and fun and i would miss him xtreme amounts. but everyone else nah. Like indiekoolkid, I'd miss the fun and stuff but i wouldnt hurt. My soul would not suffer.

Due to my lack of what feels like serotonin I am listerning to a lot of heavy bang bang bang music.

On ipod at the moment: deftones: saturday night wrist.



love and cherry ripe.

xo